okay so basically i went to a party, it was fun, at 3am i told my friend i liked her, she was sweet and apologetic about it but i wound up crying a lot after she went to sleep, and commiserating with a drunk friend, and i didn’t think my feelings were all that serious, i didn’t realize i was going to cry?? wtf

and i guess it’s not terrible, our friendship will recover i’m pretty sure, but i don’t like being rejected obviously, and she didn’t seem to enjoy rejecting me either, she felt bad, but basically she made it pretty clear that it wasn’t mutual